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9.30.2005

The Hunt for Red October

After 159 games, one game separates New York and Boston. And after wins by each Thursday night, the AL East has come down to the final three games in Fenway. This intense drama at the end of every season between the Red Sox and Yankees never get's old . . . wow ! ! !
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9.29.2005

Packt Like Sardines in a Crushd Tin Box

the boys are back in the studio . . .



We're back in the studio, and all is fun and well. Stanley's here too, or at least in the shed out back, painting again. The rats have got in and eaten all his blue paint, and there's blue rat shit everywhere: but at least he's got a good dub cd to listen to while he's working.

Jonny


satellite not working

rain rattling down the chimney. windows buffering.

not got th e words to PAY DAY yet.

but today i got the words to BURN THE (WHITE?) WITCH.. thats a good un. jonny has losts of orchestration tasks now including this..('oh good' says he exiting stage left)

blackboard filling up with ideas. lots of things happening all over the studio at once.. which i always like..although i keep having to remind myself to sit down occasionally.

night night

Thom

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9.28.2005

It's Only Rock-n-Roll, But I Like It

Last week I had one of the most incredible weeks of my life. I am a huge music fan, and like any music aficionado, I absolutely dig a live show. Last week I experienced 3 great shows in a 4-night span. Now, a week later I am finally able to gather what's left of my blown mind and attempt to write about it all, it was pretty surreal to say the least.

It all kicked off with hanging with my friend Tim in my home away from home, Lawrence. Tim and I were there to check out Jimmy Eat World. More specifically their drummer (and friend), Zach Lind. What a great guy, it was cool to finally meet up with him at the Free State Brewery before the show, where we got to know each other, shoot the shit, all the while waxing theologically and such. The show was outstanding. This was a rare night in which they could play an extended set. They are currently on tour opening up for Green Day, so a night they headline and can play more than 30 minutes (they played for over 90 minutes by the way) is a treat for them and their fans (which I am one now). Read Tim's take on the night here.

I was almost as equally impressed with a band originally from Lawrence that opened for them,
The Appleseed Cast. These guys are the "real deal". I thought they were amazing. A heavy melodic sound that both rocks and soothes. Keep your ears and eyes open for these guys.

Following that was a show I have waited my entire adult life to experience. Mainly because their live show comes so highly acclaimed by the few people whose musical tastes I completely trust and respect. Plus they have been rockin out their own brand of what I call 'psychadelic blues' for nearly 40 years now. The one and only - Allman Brothers Band.

I haven't been the same since that night. Just thinking about it leaves me speechless. However, in an effort to communicate; if I had to come up with one word, one adjective to describe this show it would be . . . explosive. An explosion of sight and sound, a full-blown assault on the senses. This has to rank as one of my top 3 shows in the hundreds in my lifetime.

I will never forget that night, never.

To cap off the 3 shows in 4 nights experience was
Coldplay.

I must interject this caveat; most people you talk to that were at the show seem to not have had a great experience. A lot of that had to do with the distraction of the typically annoying Verizon lawn crowd and standing so far in the lawn that the band looks like little ants. Plus, the band admittedly was not at full energy. Chris Martin, the lead singer, explained that they were just plain exhausted, some were playing with broken bones, others with colds, etc.

However, ask me, and I'll tell you the show kicked ass. We lucked out and got 4th row tickets (for free !!!) and were completly enraptured by their performance. Their sound was par to cd quality (which is either good or bad depending on preference), plus their stage design was amazing. They had a screen that seemed to cover the entire state of Kansas that showed live semi-animated images of the band (see above). That description doesn’t really do it justice, trust me, it was pretty amazing. I am not a Coldplay fan per se, however this was a great show (not to mention they did an acoustic Johnny Cash cover which was absolutely choice).

3 shows . . . 4 nights . . . I'll never be the same.
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9.15.2005

Lending a Helping Hand in Houston

Since I began working for Good Samaritan Project in 2002, I have attended the annual United States Conference on AIDS each year.

This conference is the largest HIV/AIDS conference in the country and one of the largest in the world. It changes 'host cities' each year; 2002 it was in Anaheim, 2003 it was in New Orleans (I will cherish that one now more than ever), and 2004 it was in Philadelphia.

I have such an unbelievable time at this conference. The world’s top HIV/AIDS researchers, doctors, pharmaceutical companies, grassroots organizations, etc. offer extraordinary seminars and lectures. It is non-stop learning and networking.

Not to mention soaking up the city nightlife at night is a must.

However, this years conference (9/28-10/2) is going to be different, it's in Houston, the home away from home for thousands of displaced Hurricane Katrina victims.

I was wondering if the 'show would go on' even. If the city could handle such a major conference in addition to all that they are doing for the victims. I received an email this week from the USCA director. Looks like not only will the conference still go on, but the conference organizers will be providing shuttle service at night for conference attendees to go to the various sites around the city where the displaced victims are being temporarily housed to volunteer our time and resources. I am thankful I get the opportunity to at least spend some time with these victims and hopefully offer some support as well:

2005 USCA Responds to Hurricane Katrina

Our USCA partners would like to express their sincere sympathy to those impacted by Hurricane Katrina.

USCA will happen this year in Houston; however, given the devastation of Hurricane Katrina, we will be making adjustments to the conference program (see below). We struggled with this decision; however, we also knew that the fight against AIDS continues, and so must our work.We hope to use the meeting as a way for the AIDS community to support and learn from those AIDS service organizations and people with AIDS impacted by Katrina, and to discuss how HIV/AIDS organizations can continue to serve their communities after a disaster.

We also have been asked by leaders in the Houston area not to cancel the meeting. The economic impact of pulling USCA out of the city would hurt the local economy when it needs our support the most.

USCA participants will have an opportunity to make direct contributions to HIV/AIDS organizations impacted by this disaster in several ways.

Instead of serving food at the plenary, on Friday, September 30, we will take the $40,000 ear-marked for meals, and donate it to community-based organizations (CBOs) in areas affected by Katrina. Donations will be accepted on-site, and participants also will be able to sign-up for volunteer opportunities at shelters, food banks and other locations, throughout the Houston area. Come early or stay longer and help out those directly affected in this community. USCA attendees also will be able to participate in a forum with CBOs/ASOs in affected areas. We intend to bring CBOs from impacted areas to directly share their stories and to let us know how they can be supported.

A number of workshops addressing the preparedness of HIV/AIDS organizations to respond to a catastrophic event like Katrina will be held, including:

How to Prepare Your Organization for an Emergency. If we learned anything from this tragedy, we learned that we need to be prepared. We will discuss what your organization needs to do to be ready to respond to an emergency situation.

How to Prepare Your Organization for a Potential Increase in Clients. Organizations outside of the areas impacted by Katrina may see an influx of evacuees. Are you ready for more clients? Do you know how to transfer files, access emergency funding, transfer public assistance from one state to another, etc.

Candlelight Vigil
There will be a candlelight vigil on Thursday, September 29, from 7:30 p.m. to 8:30 p.m., at the Hermann Square “Reflection Pond” to pay homage to lives lost to HIV/AIDS and in the recent tragedy. Shuttle service to and from the vigil will be provided.

Additional Information
Deciding whether to hold USCA was not an easy decision. We hope that you will join us and see this as a way to support those in need because of this disaster.


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9.14.2005

Presidential Potty Break

"U.S. President George W. Bush writes a note to Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice during a Security Council meeting at the 2005 World Summit and 60th General Assembly of the United Nations in New York September 14, 2005."

Our favorite part, really? "Is this possible?" Does the UN have protocol on this? Does he need a hall pass? Hold hands with a buddy? What if it weren't possible? And how would Condi solve it? Hold out her hands?

Wonkette
Reuters




p.s. - I am often (deservidly) critical of the President. However, I would give him praise when it is ever do. The 5-year wait for that is now over. Along with most of the world, I was pleasantly surprised by his statements yesterday regarding the federal governments fatal failures involving Hurricane Katrina. His statements were nothing short of honorable and respectable. I felt proud to see a President sac up and take personal responsibility, especially for such a difficult situation. Well done Mr. President.

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9.06.2005

I Deserve To Be Fired Too

Here is an excerpt of a take similar to mine regarding the hell on earth being experienced in New Orleans. Even though initially I kinda wish I hadn't read this, I'm glad I did.


" . . . I see the FEMA director expressing dismay that so many people stayed behind. He’s saying that he doesn’t understand why so many people would stay despite the warnings. If that’s not political spin, then this guy is a few fries short of a Happy Meal. The math is simple on this one. If you’re told to evacuate your home on short notice to get out of the path of a Category 5 hurricane, you can’t do it without one very important thing: money. You need money to stay in a hotel, perhaps for a very long time. You need money for food. You need a car. If you have a car, it had better be big enough for your family and their luggage. Then you need gas to run the car, and gas costs money. Nowadays, gas costs an obscene amount of money. Thus, the people left behind to suffer Katrina’s wrath fall mostly into one of two categories: people who are stupid or people who are poor. We can’t do much for the former, but we have no excuse for the plight of the latter. By “we,” I mean Christians. I mean me.

My temptation is to blame this on the government. It would be easy to make a list of ways I think our government dropped the ball on this one. I could rant for hours about how the richest country in the world can’t justify the existence of poverty so severe that thousands don’t have the resources to flee when nature throws an apocalyptic fit. I could quote Howard Zinn and wax liberal and self-righteous about how ethnic minorities have been forced into the lower economic classes through oppression. I could hold my own town meeting about all this except for something literally staring me in the face: I’m typing this on a Power Mac G5 with dual processors and a 20-inch flat-screen monitor. Six months ago, I thought I “needed” his computer, which costs as much as some used cars. As much as months of food. As much as plenty of gas, even at these ridiculous prices. Tonight, watching “the least of these” cry for help from rooftops, my definition of need is starting to change. And I’m ashamed that it took the flooding of the French Quarter for me to feel bad. Stuff like this is happening all the time, all over the world.

No, I can’t give our president a tongue-lashing over this. This is as much my fault as his, or anybody else in authority. I’m a Christian, and I hang out with a bunch of other Christians. Though we’re all middle class in America, we’re rich by international standards. And we have no excuse for permitting such poverty. Why? Because we all own Bibles. We even read them sometimes, though you don’t have to read very often to know that God commands us to help the poor. He doesn’t ask nicely. It’s not extra credit when I give change to a homeless guy. It comes with the job description of being a Christian. I deserve to be fired. "

enitire article . . .

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9.04.2005

Truth and Consequences

I can't make sense of the Hurricane Katrina tragedy, no one can or will ever be able to.

Right now emotions are too high and energy is too low to think or feel clearly. Initially, I really didn't want to watch the television coverage or read about the devastation. I don't want to be a voyeur, I don't want to stare, I don't want to be entertained by real life tragedy and chaos. Plus, I always felt that help was on the way any time now and the scene would change for the better.

A few days in to this thing, I began to hear criticisms of the President and the lack of adequate government reaction and protection. My thoughts and opinions about George Bush and his administration are no secret. I firmly believe history will prove that he was the most ineffectual, destructive, and incompetent President in US history. His pride and prejudice is disgusting. With that said, he has had a lot of shit go down on his watch. A lot. I felt that the criticisms thrown his way regarding the perceived inefficient response to the Hurricane Katrina victims were unwarranted and unfair. I felt no one could have possibly known this could have happened or how to respond to it perfectly. For once I found myself defending George Bush.

Not anymore.

I have started to watch the television coverage and read the reports for the first time. There seems to be a unanimous outrage and embarrassment regarding the Presidents and his administrations actions (or lack of) and comments regarding the tragedy and chaos in New Orleans. It is now understood that the majority of deaths (which could be in the tens of thousands) did not come during hurricane, but rather from the days spent waiting to be rescued while being exposed to fatal conditions. Here are some of the governments comments, they are definetly living in a far different reality:

FEMA chief Brown: "We learned about that (Thursday), so I have directed that we have all available resources to get that convention center to make sure that they have the food and water and medical care that they need." [Sept.1,2005]

Brown: "Considering the dire circumstances that we have in New Orleans, virtually a city that has been destroyed, things are going relatively well." [
Sept.1,2005]

Brown: "I've had no reports of unrest, if the connotation of the word unrest means that people are beginning to riot, or you know, they're banging on walls and screaming and hollering or burning tires or whatever. I've had no reports of that." [
Sept.1,2005]

Brown: "I actually think the security is pretty darn good. There's some really bad people out there that are causing some problems, and it seems to me that every time a bad person wants to scream of cause a problem, there's somebody there with a camera to stick it in their face." [
Sept.1,2005]

President George Bush: "Brownie, you're doing a heck of a job." [
Sept.2,2005]


I watch Meet the Press every Sunday morning, it's the only news programming (other than The Daily Show) that I can stomach. Tim Russert is a phenomenal journalist and interviewer. He is always right down the middle, never showing favoritism. This morning, he was not happy and it showed. His first guest was Homeland Security Secretary Michael Chertoff. Chertoff is now in charge of FEMA after Bush dismantled the program, privatized most of their responsibilities to privately owned companies, and gave the shattered remains of the program to DHS to be used to "fight terrorism". Needless to say, FEMA was in no shape to handle any crisis in America.

Here are some of the questions and statements Russert threw at Chertoff [full transcript
here]:

MR. RUSSERT: Now, let's turn to Hurricane Katrina. Joining us is the man in charge of the federal response to the disaster, the director of Homeland Security, Michael Chertoff.

Mr. Secretary, this is yesterday's Daily News: "Shame Of A Nation." And I want to read it to you and our viewers very carefully. It says, "As for Chertoff, if this is the best his department can do, the homeland is not very secure at all. It is absolutely outrageous that the United States of America could not send help to tens of thousands of forlorn, frightened, sick and hungry human beings at least 24 hours before it did, arguably longer than that. Who is specifically at fault for what is nothing less than a national scandal... It will never be known exactly what a day could have meant to so many unfortunates whose lives came to an end in those hopelessly tortured hours--on scorching roadsides, for lack of a swallow of water, in sweltering hospital beds, for lack of insulin. But what is already more than clear is that the nation's disaster-preparedness mechanisms do not appear to be in the hands of officials who know how to run them."

Mr. Secretary, are you or anyone who reports to you contemplating resignation?

MR. RUSSERT: Well, many Americans believe now is the time for accountability. The Republican governor of Massachusetts said, "We are an embarrassment to the world." The Republican senator from Louisiana, David Vitter, said that you deserve a grade of F, flunk. How would you grade yourself?

MR. RUSSERT: Senator Vitter, the Republican from Louisiana, said the death toll could reach 10,000 because of the lack of response. Do you agree with that number?

MR. RUSSERT: People were stunned by a comment the president of the United States made on Wednesday, Mr. Secretary. He said, "I don't think anyone anticipated the breach of the levees." How could the president be so wrong, be so misinformed?

MR. RUSSERT: Mr. Secretary, you say prestaged. People were sent to the Convention Center. There was no water, no food, no beds, no authorities there. There was no planning.

MR. RUSSERT: Well, Mr. Secretary, you said--hold on. Mr. Secretary, there was no food or water at the Superdome, either. And I want to stay on this because... I want to stay on this because this is very important. You said you were surprised by the levee being broken. In 2002, The Times-Picayune did story after story--and this is eerie; this is what they wrote and how they predicted what was going to happen. It said, and I'll read it very carefully: "...A major hurricane could decimate the region, but flooding from even a moderate storm could kill thousands. It's just a matter of time. ... The scene's been played out for years in computer models or emergency operations simulations... New Orleans has hurricane levees that create a bowl with the bottom dipping lower than the bottom of Lake Pontchartrain. ...the levees would trap any water that gets inside-- by breach, overtopping or torrential downpour--catastrophic storm. ... The estimated 200,000 or more people left behind in an evacuation will be struggling to survive. Some will be housed at the Superdome, the designated shelter for people too sick or inform to leave the city. ...But many will simply be on their own, in homes or looking for high ground. Thousands will drown while trapped in homes or cars by rising water. Other will be washed away or crushed by debris. Survivors will end up trapped on roofs, in buildings or on high ground surrounded by water, with no means of escape and little food or fresh water, perhaps for several days." That was four years ago. And last summer FEMA, who reports to you, and the LSU Hurricane Center, and local and state officials did a simulated Hurricane Pam in which the levees broke. The levees broke, Mr. Secretary, and people--thousands could die.

MR. RUSSERT: There's a CD which is in your department and the White House has it and the president, and you are saying, "We were surprised that the levees may not hold." How could this be?

MR. RUSSERT: But that's the point. Those who got out were people with SUVs and automobiles and airfares who could get out. Those who could not get out were the poor who rely on public buses to get out. Your Web site says that your department assumes primary responsibility for a national disaster. If you knew a hurricane 3 storm was coming, why weren't buses, trains, planes, cruise ships, trucks provided on Friday, Saturday, Sunday to evacuate people before the storm?

WOW.

Following Chertoff, Russert had on the president of Jefferson Parish in New Orleans, Aaron Broussard. By the end of this segment, he was completely broken down, sobbing uncontrollably [video] :


RUSSERT: You just heard the director of homeland security’s explanation of what has happened this last week. What is your reaction?

BROUSSARD: We have been abandoned by our own country. Hurricane Katrina will go down in history as one of the worst storms ever to hit an American coast. But the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina will go down as one of the worst abandonments of Americans on American soil ever in U.S. history. … Whoever is at the top of this totem pole, that totem pole needs to be chainsawed off and we’ve got to start with some new leadership. It’s not just Katrina that caused all these deaths in New Orleans here. Bureaucracy has committed murder here in the greater New Orleans area and bureaucracy has to stand trial before Congress now.

Broussard then discussed the difficulties local authorities had with FEMA, including one case where they actually posted armed guards to keep FEMA from cutting their communications lines:

Three quick examples. We had Wal-Mart deliver three trucks of water. FEMA turned them back. They said we didn’t need them. This was a week ago. FEMA, we had 1,000 gallons of diesel fuel on a Coast Guard vessel docked in my parish. When we got there with our trucks, FEMA says don’t give you the fuel. Yesterday — yesterday — FEMA comes in and cuts all of our emergency communication lines. They cut them without notice. Our sheriff, Harry Lee, goes back in, he reconnects the line. He posts armed guards and said no one is getting near these lines…

Finally, Broussard told the tragic personal story of a colleague, and broke down:

I want to give you one last story and I’ll shut up and let you tell me whatever you want to tell me. The guy who runs this building I’m in, Emergency Management, he’s responsible for everything. His mother was trapped in St. Bernard nursing home and every day she called him and said, “Are you coming, son? Is somebody coming?” and he said, “Yeah, Mama, somebody’s coming to get you.” Somebody’s coming to get you on Tuesday. Somebody’s coming to get you on Wednesday. Somebody’s coming to get you on Thursday. Somebody’s coming to get you on Friday… and she drowned Friday night. She drowned Friday night! [Sobbing] Nobody’s coming to get us. Nobody’s coming to get us. The Secretary has promised. Everybody’s promised. They’ve had press conferences. I’m sick of the press conferences. For god’s sakes, just shut up and send us somebody.


I nearly broke down in tears watching it.

I am now convinced beyond any doubt that our country has let it’s people down and is indirectly responsible for thousands of deaths on it’s own soil. Most of our protective programs have been eliminated in favor of less taxes, with the remains of those protective programs being consumed by a baseless war thousands of miles away in Iraq. The race card keeps being played in attempting to rationalize the ineffectivesness of our governments response. I do not believe the government was so embarrassingly ineffective in responding because the people were black. I can maybe believe the point could be made that since the majority of the victims were poor, they were therefor not an extremely high "priority" (i.e. - no/little income = no/little taxes = not a priority). Neither accusation mean much at this point, true or not.

As easy as it may be to point blame (and some of it is much deserved), it won’t help those in need and that is what is truly important. This mornings special
Bruderhof Daily Dig echoed that very clearly and eloquently :

In the wake of Katrina, one could say plenty regarding our government’s response (or lack thereof), and about how many more lives could have been saved if those in power had been more on the ball. But this is not the time to point fingers: we have been struck, unprepared, by a mammoth refugee crisis, widespread lawlessness, martial law, and a degree of public panic that has never been associated with life in the United States.

Not surprisingly, the news media is obsessed with the economic consequences of Katrina: the skyrocketing cost of gas, the instability of the real estate market, and the weakening of the dollar, to name just a few. As usual, it seems that the financial and material aspects of the disaster are of paramount importance to us. For many people, the biggest question seems to be, “How long will it be before the price of gas goes down again, and I can return to life-as-usual?”

Very few people seem to be asking what sort of a spiritual impact this disaster will have, and whether we are going to let it affect our consciences and our collective soul. Shouldn’t we all be praying for a spiritual renewal, and for a new era of justice and love? To me, that is the sort of question we should be asking.


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9.01.2005

Renewed Sight


My church community has a beautiful new website that clearly reflects the renown of common people.


Gracious Father, we pray for thy church, Jacobs Well.
Fill it with all truth, in all truth with all peace.
Where it is corrupt, purify it;
where it is in error, direct it;
where in any thing it is amiss, reform it.
Where it is right, strengthen it;
where it is in want, provide for it;
where it is divided, reunite it;
for the sake of Jesus Christ thy Son our Savior.

Lord, make us instruments of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let us sow love;
where there is injury, pardon; where there is discord, union;
where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy.
Grant that we may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen.
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